Angel’s transformation

It hasn’t been an easy week for me… but I have pushed my way through it. I got a lot done, and I am very proud of myself for that… but it wasn’t as directly focused as I would like, and that I know I am capable of doing. My week started off with a binge, but I recovered quickly from it - even though I am certain that it impacted my weight somewhat. That is ok. I did have a huge revelation, and have been coping with the realizations that developed from it since it has happened. Mostly I have been working on refocusing my life after such a life changing awareness came about. My days have been long and filled with a lot of work. This has messed with my diet plan a bit, going longer hours without eating and ultimately leading to making not so great choices. It started on Tuesday, when I woke up and decided I was too tired to go to my weight training class. After my realization, I couldn’t get to bed on Monday night - stayed up until 3:00am thinking about it. So, Tuesday I just wanted to sleep in a bit. When I woke up I woke to a surprise, my TOM had started… great. haha.

 All day Tuesday I worked hard to perfect the 30 day menu I have been working on for the last couple months, and then made a list of all the meats I would need for the entire duration. Once that was done we went to Costco to get the bulk of our monthly groceries. This took like 4 hours. Ugh! Well, it was very late by the end of it and too late to cook, so we picked up a pasta that could quickly be heated up and served. This pasta was very very bad. But I ate it, a lot of it. It made me feel gross. lol.

All day Wednesday I was packing up the meat into preportioned days that I had previously planned, I then proceeded to completely clean out and reorganize the fridge, and every single cupboard in the kitchen, along with almost every closet in the house. By the end of this I was completely exhausted, and really just wanted to order pizza for dinner. But - I couldn’t, I made a pact with Shawna (thanks babe!) that would stop us from eating pizza in November. So, I grudgingly made dinner… but not before having to go spend 15 minutes alone in bed in complete darkness. That seemed to fix me though, and I did manage to go make the meal that was planned. I wanted to finish cleaning the house after dinner and skip my Deep H20 workout, but Jose’ was extremely supportive and told me that if I went to my workout he would clean up the house for me. So sweet! How do you say no to that? I was extremely appreciative, and went to my exercise class.

Thursday was ok, I went to my weight training class in the morning, I ate everything on plan during the day and that was all good… then in the afternoon I started feeling very fat and bloated. It was awful. I wasn’t hungry, just bloated an uncomfortable. It made me feel like I did before I lost 23 pounds. I didn’t want dinner, so decided to go out for coffee with some friends instead. By the end of it I became extremely hungry, and was very very very tempted to pick up some Wendy’s on my way home to eat in front of the TV while watching survivor. However, I knew that would be breaking my personal goal for the week (no eating in front of the TV/computer)… and this is what ultimately made me decide against it, because I don’t enjoy fast food unless I am eating it mindlessly while watching TV or movies. Crazy, I know! It just goes to show that it really is my food to binge with. Well, I went home and was happily surprised to see a chicken breast saved for me… so I ate it, along with a cheese sandwich. I was very satisfied with this.

This morning, to reward myself for my hard work, and my 23 pound weight loss (which actually turned out to be 25 pounds when I weighed myself after my exercise class :)) I went out and bought myself 2 new workout pants and shirts, a hoodie, and a really nice skirt. I also bought myself some hair dye, so I could have a little mini makeover which I plan to do tonight. I went to the gym after and did my ‘breathe’ class - which was wonderful… mostly because I was wearing my new (smaller) exercise clothes and could really tell the size difference in me. I felt like I looked hot, and this felt good! Then I weighed myself, seen a 2 pound loss (wohoo!!) - which, as I said brings me to a total of 25 pounds gone!

This week was tough, mostly because it through me off a bit from my regular routine… but I am glad that even with everything I still managed to do well. Even in the face of my TOM, temptations all over the place, and complete exhaustion, I managed to lose 2 pounds (so far) - I will weigh in officially tomorrow. I also finally have my house perfectly in order, in an organized way that will make my life sooo much easier this next month. The hard work definitely paid off.

I think that I may need to change up my exercise soon… and I may just start that this week. Perhaps it is time to introduce some new types of exercise to my routine… like the dreaded spin class (eek!!!), and maybe add a second session every couple days (perhaps yoga, I may be ready for it). I would also like to get involved in a meditation class if possible. I am starting to realize that complete peace and quiet in darkness and stillness is what has got my through a lot of temptations, emotional difficulties, and stressful times… so I am going to look into that, I think… but for now, it is time for me to start doing my mini make over…. wish me luck!