Angel’s transformation

I am moving past it, beyond it, learning from it, taking what I need, going forward. Thank you buddies for your kind words and your support during the last 2 days of difficulty that I was facing. I really appreciate your compassion, advice and kind words. As you could probably tell, I am so much harder on myself than I would ever be on anyone else. My perfectionism definitely gets in the way of things. I am way too stubborn for my own good a lot of the time, and that is why I get so down when my plans don’t work out.

 I decided to throw out the low carb high protein diet that I was on, it caused me to binge eat and now I know that this just won’t work for me. I look back at how far I have come, how much I have done… and then I think to myself “why fix it when it isn’t broken?”. I think the reason why I decided to change up my plan was because I wasn’t happy with the fact that I had maintained the week before. I was putting too much importance on the number on the scale and stopped focusing on how good I was feeling as being the determining factor of whether or not I was succeeding. As a result I decided to change things up, thinking maybe it was my diet that was causing me to maintain. Not taking into account the various factors that contributed. Hoping for a quick fix I went to the one thing I had known about dieting before - hoping that it would cause me to loose a huge amount of weight quickly. Of course, now I know this was my downfall.

So, I am going back to what worked. The thing that made me feel healthy, feel happy, and content. I need to stop worrying soo much about the result, and just enjoy the process and the successes I have achieved in how I feel. I am grateful that I came to this realization quickly, it only took me a couple days to notice what was wrong, which of course was aided by the help of some good friends on here. So, again - thank you.

I am just astounded by this site and the people on it. I have never done this well for this long and felt so good about it that I just knew in my heart that I would be able to continue on this way indefinitely. I don’t know what it is about this community that did it for me, but I am so thankful to have finally found it. I am not sure that I would have pulled so quickly and easily out of the pit I found myself in after the last couple binges if it weren’t for all of you.

So, today was fresh start with the knowledge I gained from the last bump in the road. I had a great day, I was renewed, rejuvinated, completely fresh and fully energized. I woke up and had my planned breakfast, went and did 20 minutes on the treadmill in which I just drenched the machine with sweat, then I proceeded to my ‘breathe’ class and performed the best I have ever done - I was able to accomplish more yoga moves than ever before. It made me think back to where I started, and it made me soo proud to know how far I have come in the last couple months. So happy. Then, feeling elated I went home and ate my planned lunch, then proceeded to pack up my bag and my family to go for a nice hike at our national park. I sat on a rock, by the river, watching my daughter throw rocks into the water, while noticing the sun set in an amazingly colourful sky. Just wonderful.

I felt grateful today, totally grateful. I was thankful for the fall I just had, because it taught me an incredible lesson - one that I needed to learn. It made me stronger, better, and more prepared for the rest of the journey ahead. I was given the gift of success. I was given an opportunity to grow. No matter how much it hurt the last couple days, no matter the blow to my ego - it taught me something valuable, something that I will never lose and always treasure.