A big fat cheater
Buddies - I am feeling really dissapointed in myself and need some cheering up. Anyone who has read my other posts know that I have been really taking a strong stance against take out and eating unhealthy foods. Well, today I gave in. I lost control. I binged again.
This morning went well. I woke up, went and worked out - did a 60 minute weight lifting class at the gym. I managed to so lunges with weight on the bar for the first time - ever! I went home, ate my lunch and then started getting tired. I decided to go watch a movie. My daughter wanted a snack, and it started with me thinking she could have some popcorn… but then decided she could have some halloween candy instead. So, I go and get her some candy… and then, I go back and get myself some. Forget some - lots.
Now, I have been really good with halloween being around. I hadn’t had a single piece of halloween candy until today. So, I quickly pigged out on the chocolate, and chips, and candy. I probably had 10 pieces in total, and 1 small bag of chips. Then I crashed. Hardcore - slept for 3 hours. Woke up totally fatigued and lethargic and decided I didn’t want to cook dinner so ordered a large lasagna and a caeser salad with a side of hot wings. Well, I ate ALL of it. Even when I was so stuffed I felt like puking, I kept eating. I just kept pigging out.
Now, my stomach hurts, I feel heavy, lathargic, exhausted, dissapointed, so sad, flat out miserable. This is an especially big dissapointment since I was supposed to be doing my 12 day detox and my 14 day low carb high protein diet. Today would have been day 4. Now, I feel like I totally messed it up. I feel soo awful. I just don’t understand what is wrong with me to let this happen. I have been soo good, which makes this an even bigger blow. Help buddies I need some loving, I feel so crappy. 
Awww girl…big hugs!!
Just remember..its one day out of many-this is not the end of the road! Sometimes if we look at it…one day in time..and the rest you do pretty good it is not going to throw it all away.
I did this the other day, only mine was chicken and dumplings-my downfall. Oh, man..thought i was gonna make myself sick and just kept eating. I got through this..I am not happy I did this..I was upset..pissed off…but, sighs…we just have to move on. I try to look at these times as a lesson-what can I learn…for me..it was dont make chicken & dumplings..it controls me..not the other way around. What about you…what can you learn?
Big hugs girl…that tummy will ease up after a while (big help I know)-its time to get back on track mentally and then physically.
You can do this!
Debbie
Oh Angel! You have been doing sooooo good…but you are human! You are allowed to fall down every once in a while…but what are you going to do now? THAT is the big question - if you get back up and jump on that horse then it was a small bump in the road but you will learn from it…if you stay down THEN and only THEN does it become a failure.
So stop beating yourself up and be proud of the changes you have made! You are one of the most motivating people on here…now cut yourself a little slack and go do a bunch of lunges for Fitness Survivor…LOL
Love ya!!!
Stacey
Please don’t beat yourself up about this. Losing weight is a life-long journey, and this was one tiny bump in a very long road. We all slip up sometimes, and like Stacey mentioned, the important thing is to get back on track and not let it get you down. You are SO much stronger than some lasagna and a few candy bars.
Jump up, dust off, keep going! YOU can do this! You’re a very tough lady, very inspirational, and it’s hard to see you down when I KNOW you can do it!!!
Feel better.
