I mentioned here before that I am an INFJ personality type - and that it fits me perfectly. I find that it described me almost 100%. This is how it describes someone like me:
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As an INFJ, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you take things in primarily via intuition. Your secondary mode is external, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit with your personal value system.
INFJs are gentle, caring, complex and highly intuitive individuals. Artistic and creative, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. Only one percent of the population has an INFJ Personality Type, making it the most rare of all the types.
INFJs place great importance on havings things orderly and systematic in their outer world. They put a lot of energy into identifying the best system for getting things done, and constantly define and re-define the priorities in their lives. On the other hand, INFJs operate within themselves on an intuitive basis which is entirely spontaneous. They know things intuitively, without being able to pinpoint why, and without detailed knowledge of the subject at hand. They are usually right, and they usually know it. Consequently, INFJs put a tremendous amount of faith into their instincts and intuitions. This is something of a conflict between the inner and outer worlds, and may result in the INFJ not being as organized as other Judging types tend to be. Or we may see some signs of disarray in an otherwise orderly tendency, such as a consistently messy desk.
INFJs have uncanny insight into people and situations. They get “feelings” about things and intuitively understand them. As an extreme example, some INFJs report experiences of a psychic nature, such as getting strong feelings about there being a problem with a loved one, and discovering later that they were in a car accident. This is the sort of thing that other types may scorn and scoff at, and the INFJ themself does not really understand their intuition at a level which can be verbalized. Consequently, most INFJs are protective of their inner selves, sharing only what they choose to share when they choose to share it. They are deep, complex individuals, who are quite private and typically difficult to understand. INFJs hold back part of themselves, and can be secretive.
But the INFJ is as genuinely warm as they are complex. INFJs hold a special place in the heart of people who they are close to, who are able to see their special gifts and depth of caring. INFJs are concerned for people’s feelings, and try to be gentle to avoid hurting anyone. They are very sensitive to conflict, and cannot tolerate it very well. Situations which are charged with conflict may drive the normally peaceful INFJ into a state of agitation or charged anger. They may tend to internalize conflict into their bodies, and experience health problems when under a lot of stress.
Because the INFJ has such strong intuitive capabilities, they trust their own instincts above all else. This may result in an INFJ stubborness and tendency to ignore other people’s opinions. They believe that they’re right. On the other hand, INFJ is a perfectionist who doubts that they are living up to their full potential. INFJs are rarely at complete peace with themselves - there’s always something else they should be doing to improve themselves and the world around them. They believe in constant growth, and don’t often take time to revel in their accomplishments. They have strong value systems, and need to live their lives in accordance with what they feel is right. In deference to the Feeling aspect of their personalities, INFJs are in some ways gentle and easy going. Conversely, they have very high expectations of themselves, and frequently of their families. They don’t believe in compromising their ideals.
INFJ is a natural nurturer; patient, devoted and protective. They make loving parents and usually have strong bonds with their offspring. They have high expectations of their children, and push them to be the best that they can be. This can sometimes manifest itself in the INFJ being hard-nosed and stubborn. But generally, children of an INFJ get devoted and sincere parental guidance, combined with deep caring.
In the workplace, the INFJ usually shows up in areas where they can be creative and somewhat independent. They have a natural affinity for art, and many excel in the sciences, where they make use of their intuition. INFJs can also be found in service-oriented professions. They are not good at dealing with minutia or very detailed tasks. The INFJ will either avoid such things, or else go to the other extreme and become enveloped in the details to the extent that they can no longer see the big picture. An INFJ who has gone the route of becoming meticulous about details may be highly critical of other individuals who are not.
The INFJ individual is gifted in ways that other types are not. Life is not necessarily easy for the INFJ, but they are capable of great depth of feeling and personal achievement.
Jungian functional preference ordering:
Dominant: Introverted Intuition
Auxilliary: Extraverted Feeling
Tertiary: Introverted Thinking
Inferior: Extraverted Sensing
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The reason I decided to post this is because over the weekend something happened that I couldn’t ignore, and I wanted to explain a bit about my personality and why I couldn’t ignore it. I hope those people who have judged me as being one way or another can understand this better after reading this blog.
I am involved in a challenge, which was newly developed, and that has been made up of rules that the participants helped to create. The original creator of the challenge participates in the challenge, on one of the teams (which is great), but because of this she isn’t as impartial as a game (that involves eliminations, teams, and competitions) usually requires. As a result of this the rules haven’t always been applied in a consistant fashion. Occasionally, the rules are bent or interpreted differently depending on the team they would be applied to. I doubt this is done intentionally, but sometimes it happens naturally when the person applying the rules isn’t impartial. It is only human, especially if you are a competitive human. The way I look at it, is that if the creator of the challenge is going to participate, and if we all helped make the rules so that it is fair - isn’t it our responsibility to also ensure they are being applied fairly?
Now, I can hear everyone thinking “it is only a game”. Who cares right? It is just a game, there is no prize, it is only there to motivate and provide support to the participants. However, for me - as an INFJ personality type, when something that I consider unfair has happened I can’t ignore it. I feel that it is completely necessary for me to point out what has happened out of respect for the challenge, and what it stands for. To say nothing, ignore it, and continue to play even when these inconsistancies continue would go against my values and respect for the game. I feel that the inconsistant application of rules will only get worse if something isn’t done about it, and that as a result the game will become less motivating and will provide less support to the participants. It is only a matter of time. Now, as someone who is insightful and intuitive - I can feel the effect these inconsistancies will have on the game IMMEDIATELY. Even though it wasn’t something directly effecting me. I feel less motivated, less supported because of what happened. I can tell where it will lead before it has happened to everyone else. So, I felt that it was my responsibility to bring this up.
As a result of bringing this up - I am now being looked at negatively. Some people feel that I am just causing drama. Others are attacking my character. I know (I can FEEL) that some people think it is simply me being selfish and wanting more points and wanting the other team to have less points. I can feel this coming from people. Speaking of which, everyone’s reaction to this has taught me SO much about them. Things that only conflict can bring out in people. True colours so to speak. So, for that I am grateful - I like knowing more about the people I am trusting to help and support me. It has taught me a lot.
Anyway, I wanted to clarify a few things. This isn’t about points. This isn’t about winning, losing or anything of the sorts. This is about rules and how rules are applied. This is about being fair, to all sides, and creating accountability to ensure this happens. I also wanted to point out that I debated whether or not to bring it up, and then when I was given the brush off I debated whether or not to press the issue. This wasn’t easy for me. During this mental debate I became physically ill - illness had manifested itself into my present state because of how upset it had made me. This was a clear indicator to me that it was bothering me, and that I was right to bring it up and that I did in fact need to continue to press the issue.
This isn’t easy for me - I would LOVE to be able to just ignore it, brush it off as part of the game, or say “what the hell, it doesn’t have anything to do with me anyway”. But I can’t. I wish I could, but I can’t. It makes me sad to think that I may have to quit the challenge when it has been such a huge motivator for me. But, if something isn’t done - the motivation wouldn’t be there for me anyway even if I did continue. I would feel like an injustice has happened, and that it is only a matter of time before it happens again. This makes me so sad. Sometimes I wish I didn’t feel the things I feel. But that is who I am, take it or leave it - for better or worse.
It isn’t easy for me, but nothing worth fighting for is.
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I am so proud! Soooo proud!