Angel’s transformation

Sooo.. sabatoge reared its head again today… and I almost gave in - twice!

This morning I didn’t feel like going to my exercise class (an hour long ‘breathe’ class including yoga, tai chi, and pilates), and I finally made up my mind that I wasn’t going to do it, not going - no way, no how … so, I went and told my daughter that I didn’t feel like going to the gym this morning. Now, I wasn’t consciously aware that I did this - but the night before I told my daughter that she could dress up as a princess for the gym in the morning. Well, because of this Myah (my daughter) said “but mommy, I want to go, you said I could dress up like a princess. Can we please go to the gym?”… how do you say no to that? So, because of this I did go to the gym, and had a truly WONDERFUL class. I absolutely loved it! AND I found out the class tomorrow was cancelled, so by going I also averted a let down the next morning when I would show up to my gym and have no class to go to…

Anyway, I am totally shocked by this whole situation - I mean, I arranged for my daughter to encourage me to go to the gym, without even intending to!  I countered my own sabatoge ahead of time! How cool is that?!?

So, then lunch time came - and I didn’t feel like eating what I had planned, I really was craving subway - but this is my 8th day on my 21 day journey towards NO take out, so I didn’t give in… and ate my taco salad (which, was actually very very yummy!). Tonight I craved pizza, desperately. I was just wanting and wanting and wanting it - so, I went and ate a piece of cheese, hoping that would fill my craving. It didn’t, I contemplated what I could do since I couldn’t do take out… so I though, aha - I will just go to my grocery store and buy a pizza I can cook at home! But - wait, that is still pre-packaged, pre-made, take out - technically speaking. So, I had a little temper tantrum (went to my room and everything, lol) and finally came to terms with the fact that I couldn’t have pizza unless I looked up a healthy version and made it myself. Well, that wasn’t what I was craving - so I decided to make the dinner I had on plan (tiger prawns, and veggie based pasta salad). I made it in a new way (and probably added too much cheese to it), BUT I didn’t order pizza! I didn’t take out pizza! I ate what was on my menu! I didn’t give in to temptation - wohoo!

Now, I am still cravin’ pizza - but I can feel that my belly is full, my body is content - and that it is ALL in my mind. Sabatoge, no doubt, is seething with desire to make me go off plan, destroy the hard work I put into losing 7 pounds this week… but I refuse to let it! I am NOT afraid to lose this weight, I am ready for it!

If the desire for pizza becomes too strong tonight, I think I will call up a friend and go have a coffee or something… anything to prevent myself from giving in to temptation. Wish me luck!